Lots has happened since my last entry. I turned 20 years old. I put down a deposit on my home. I got a new job at the Plasma Center. I am way excited about that. A pay raise from $7.50 to $9 an hour. I will be working full time so I will have all the health benefits! So exciting. I feel like an adult. I am paying most of my own bills (the major one's at least) and working hard! I love it, but sometimes I hate it. Anyways I have narrowed the feild for my life. I know I am going into the medical feild. If i am going to be a sender there is no way being a teacher is going to make that happen. So i chose medicine. Plus I have always had a passion to help people and there are jobs that help you !rack in the dough!... coming from a white girl... I hope i said that right! I am getting my car fixed which is very exciting and I don't have to pay for a rental car thank you G-ma!

Just a funny thought. Satan can steal everything from me, but he can't take my vision! I feel that way. I feel like I don't even know who I am sometimes, but then I always know my vision and my passion. God is not letting go and neither am I! How exciting!

Sterling and I both have been sick (for those of you who don't know, Sterling is my boyfriend. Maybe I can get some pictures up sometime for you all to see.) I started out with the flu then passed it to him and he passed it back so now we are sharing in our sickness. But if you have to be sick with someone it is good to do it with someone you like!

hmmmm...That's all folks!!! 

What Can I say? Thanksgiving was great for the day that it lasted!

I miss my gf's. Really bad. Sometimes I just want to run away and be with them. Boyfriend is great but just not the same. You know! I think this thing is like my journal.

Not safe...

later...

I think my title of the recreated page may say all for my life right now. I have been doing research on the war in Uganda. It has been going on for 20 years now and the children are highly affected by this war. They are being taken by the LRA and boys become soldiers while girls become sex slaves. I look at organizations like "Invisible Children" and then people like Sterlings sister who are out there helping these children. Every part of me screams to be doing the same thing. Not for life mind you, but for a short time to satisfy this craving to help. To do something worthwhile with my youth. I want to make a difference in their lives and change their situations for the good. I want that.

So many factors keep me here though. Finances is number one. I cannot afford something like this and if I save up it will take years, I'm sure, to gather just enough for the plane ticket.

Yet I still yearn to go! Hmmm...

I got a job!!!!!!!

 I will be working at Bed Bath and Beyond!!!! Starting at $7.50 an hour.

Pretty decent for a college student. That is part time. Yea! Although with a great education some people make $25 an hour. Man that # seems huge. Oh well  I am thankful for my $7.50 an hour job! Thank you Lord. you knew just what I was need and wanting. I love it. Life is good. I remember reading one time in John Bever's book that the Lord is most glorified in us when we are most satisfied in Him. Truly I see the hand of God on my life and I am satisfied that He still hears and cares. I thought for a while that I was too far from Him for Him to help me but He is still right here. The only way to live life is to live it fully! I want to live fully. Down to earth. I can't wait! Oh the places we will go Lord. With Him by my side i can really do any thing. I am currently sitting at the house about to go pick up my friend from work. He will fill up my gas tank otherwise i wouldn't make it back. Then tomorrow I am going out to HA. I am going to see my friends. The one's who have encouraged me and loved me through one of the most life transforming years I have ever experienced. I miss them so bad. i simply cannot wait! Lord please lead me, guide me, discipline me, but hold me, love me, and mold me.

whew! i didn't think I could ever feel this way again. Of course, i knew this was just a season! Man what are the lessons Lord?

kisses to all!!!